I feel..... __________

I haven't been much in the writing mode these last few weeks. To be honest, there has been too much on my mind. Besides staying busy with photography outside of my full time job, my husband just changed jobs. He went from a state job of over 11 years which felt safe, to a whole new company. A whole new company and a whole new type of job. Don't get me wrong, I am extremely excited for him and I do think it is a great move for him. Especially in the long run career wise. It is just scary to step over the ledge of security. What if things change? What if he hates it? What if...

We also have been discussing other changes. Like having a second child. It is something we both want to do, but is it really the right time? We were all for getting rid of the birth control in July and now here comes July sneaking around the corner, I am freaking out a little. A lot. A new job, a new baby and everything else? I think baby #2 may have to wait a few more months until life settles a little. Honestly, my kid eats cookies for breakfast. Like, every day. I may not be responsible enough to have a second child right now. 

We were entertaining the idea of me going from full time to part time in the office so I could have more time at home and more time to do photography. I do love that idea. I was happiest when I worked part time when Dakota was 2 but also my office job is going so great right now. It would be hard to leave since I am committed there as well. I feel like I am needed there and I am needed at home. 

The trouble as always is I want to do everything. I want to have enough time in the day to show my family how much I love them and spend time with them. I want to be able to keep my house clean (OCD super sucks sometimes because this is HIGHLY important to me.) I want to have a successful career in Human Resources, I think I am pretty good at it and I am still learning. I want to be extremely successful as a photographer because I love that too. There just isn't enough time in the day. If only I could be Hermione on Harry Potter and have that Time Turner. 

For now, I am just a tired mess trying to do everything at once. Somehow, I will continue to make it all work until God shows me the path I should be on. Can't seem to pick the best option for myself right now so I will keep working hard until he shows me the way!

Sharing a few pictures of my sweet girl and the deer. I absolutely loved everything about the deer session. Her next session will be a mermaid on the beach! If everything works out, I will post those next week! As always, thanks for reading!